You may be an ESTJ.
This type tends to be very respectful of authority and expertise. They tend to worry that they themselves are not “strong enough/skilled enough.” This often leads to a lot of “self-imposed pressure” to “perfect themselves.”
Ironically, this “intense discipline” can lead to a strong “surface level” self-confidence, but “deep down” they may still harbor those secret doubts about themselves.
This type is all about “sensory experiences.” They frequently “express their care for others” by creating a strong sensory experience (i.e. hosting an event). However, their tendency to “strive for perfection” makes “creating an experience for others” very stressful.